tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-92088450203219419512024-02-20T01:53:17.880-08:00Divorcing the DevilUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9208845020321941951.post-78839559250430836052013-04-08T19:48:00.000-07:002013-04-09T14:33:59.385-07:00In the beginning . . . <br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When we met I was smitten. He was older, handsome, and very charming. I actually knew I was going to marry him . . . someday. I fell hard for him! He had a great job and made a good living so we were always doing fun and exciting things together. He was very attentive and remarkably romantic. It felt like a fairy tale. I was happy. He seemed happy. We moved forward. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Before long he asked me to move closer to him and everything just fell into place. I had just started a new job that I loved and wanted to be closer to the office too. I searched for an affordable apartment but wasn't having much luck. I found one that I loved but just could not make the finances work. He liked it too. He offered to help a little each month with the rent and I reluctantly said yes. That was not something I would normally do at all. I got my 1st job when I was 15 and had been fiercely independent since that time. I think I accepted his offer to be closer to him but I admit it felt good that he wanted to help me or take care of me or both. Again, not my personality at all! I have always been very head strong and independent and absolutely hate being told what to do. I was in love!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">All seemed fine in the beginning. There were a few arguments here and there but nothing that set off any alarms. Then quite suddenly as we grew closer and closer his jealousy became overwhelming --- quite stifling, in fact. In time it even started to interfere with my job. At the time I worked in an office with almost all men and I had known and worked with them all for many years (just a new company and location). There was a lot of time out of the office with different co-workers and even business trips with one or all of them at any given time. That became problematic.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When I would not respond to a phone call or text message quickly enough the accusations would fly. The name calling would begin and a lot of hurtful words would follow. The men that I worked with knew the devil well since we had all, at one time worked for the same company. They were very protective of me and soon began to think he was off his rocker! During this time he also would start to withhold funds for the rent if I made him angry or did something that he did not like. My mom remembers more than I do the phone calls where I would call her crying because he was angry and hurtful and I was scared that I would be evicted. She was concerned immediately. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It wasn't always bad. When we got along it was really good. I found myself trying not to upset him and sometimes even lying about work so that he wouldn't get angry. I was happy when he was happy. It soon became my mission to keep him happy to avoid any accusations and keep the peace. I think I was also scared of A) being alone in the new city B) dating anyone else or starting over and C) not paying my rent. Wow ---- that sounds so ridiculous now! I also more importantly thought that things would change ... they never did. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Fast forward about a year and or so and we found out I was pregnant. We were not actively not trying to get pregnant and had discussed having children together. I was not ready to get married but we were (I thought) fully committed to one another and ready to again move forward and become parents. I was not at all concerned with being married. We were happy and pregnant!! I thought surely this would be the turning point in our relationship. Things were really good for a while. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Then at about 7 or 8 months along I was driving his truck and found lipstick on the passenger side floorboard. It wasn't mine. I was pregnant, hormonal and pissed off!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I asked him about the lipstick, he denied, denied, denied and even turned it around and made it my fault. How the hell did that happen? I was so mad I threw things - I yelled - I cursed - I kicked things . . . and then I forgave him.</span><br />
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Divorced from the Devilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17751203518745052844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9208845020321941951.post-89120924600440878302013-04-04T17:01:00.003-07:002013-04-04T18:23:31.282-07:00Divorcing the Devil - Introduction<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I need to tell my story. </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">I am hoping by sharing it will help me heal. And I hope by sharing my story at least one other person finds the strength to make it through their own story. </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">Maybe I am sharing it for my children to read one day. I don't know how much I really want them to know right now but I do know that I want better for my 2 daughters and I expect more from my son. </span></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">It is hard to know where to begin so I may jump around until we get to the present.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Our divorce has only been final for 4 months but the journey to get here started years ago. Our marriage was really over before it ever began but for some reason I always wanted it to work. I worked hard at being happy but the devil had a way of sucking the joy right out of life. For too long I allowed him to kill my spirit. Looking back at the past me ---- I don't even know who I was. I lost my joy. I lost my happiness. I lost myself. My only joy was my three wonderful children. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I stayed too long. I will tell you why in a different post. I truly believe if I had stayed any longer I would never have been able to claw my way back to happiness. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I am thankful today for the people in my life that helped me find the strength to leave. They stayed by my side for what seemed like the longest divorce ever. There were so many dark days that without a loving family and supportive friends I might have gone back. Going back would have been easy. Going back would have been safe. Going back would have been a huge mistake. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I made it through the dark days and have found my happiness, my joy and my spirit. I cannot remember the last time I felt such pure happiness. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Yes, I have 3 children and of course I was beyond happy when each was born but the constant fear of upsetting the devil made my entire life feel as if I was always walking on egg shells. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">Because relationships exist on a <a href="http://www.loveisrespect.org/spectrum/index.html" rel="lightbox[external 720 785]" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;" title="Relationship Spectrum">spectrum,</a> it can be hard to tell when a behavior crosses the line from healthy to unhealthy or even abusive. Use these warning signs of abuse to see if your relationship is going in the wrong direction:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">A relationship can be unhealthy or abusive even without <a href="http://www.loveisrespect.org/is-this-abuse/types-of-abuse/what-is-physical-abuse" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;">physical violence.</a> Verbal abuse may not cause physical damage, but it does cause emotional pain and scarring. It can also lead to physical violence if the relationship continues on the unhealthy path its on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">Sometimes verbal abuse is so bad that you actually start believing what your partner says. You begin to think you’re stupid, ugly or fat. You agree that nobody else would ever want to be in a relationship with you. Constantly being criticized and told you aren’t good enough causes you to lose confidence and lowers your self esteem. As a result, you may start to blame yourself for your partner’s abusive behavior.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">Remember -- emotional abuse is never your fault. In fact, your partner may just be trying to control or manipulate you into staying in the relationship. <a href="http://www.loveisrespect.org/get-help/support-systems" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;">Talk to someone</a> you trust, like a parent, friend or teacher, about the situation and make a <a href="http://www.loveisrespect.org/get-help/safety-planning" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; text-decoration: none;">safety plan</a>. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">The above was taken from a teen site to help identify emotional abuse. A TEEN SITE. This is why I need to share my story. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I was never sure it was abuse and I did start to believe the things that he said. The worst part was how the devil would convince me that it was my fault ---- he can still sometimes do that to this day. It has been a long road of healing and an even longer journey to find my self confidence again. There are setbacks occasionally. Unfortunately, with three children I will always have to deal with the devil but I'm learning how to deal with his tirades and accusations without feeling like I've done something wrong. He has the problem --- not me. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">Verbal abuse is difficult to identify and regrettably can be a common <a href="http://divorcesupport.about.com/od/abusiverelationships/f/abuse1.htm" style="color: #3366cc; cursor: pointer; font-style: inherit; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">type of abuse</a> in some marriages. Not all words that are meant to hurt are "ugly words." A master at verbal abuse can damage your self-esteem while, at the same time, appear to care deeply for you. The use of words to punish is a very covert attempt to control and regardless of how loving your spouse may appear to be, verbal abuse is wrong and can be just has harmful as physical abuse.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">Physical abuse is easily identified. There is no doubt, once you have been hit, that you have been <a href="http://divorcesupport.about.com/od/abusiverelationships/a/abusehub.htm" style="color: #3366cc; cursor: pointer; font-style: inherit; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;">physically abused</a>. You don’t second guess yourself because the bruises and scars are visible evidence that abuse has taken place. Verbal abuse is different. The damage is internal, there are no physical bruises or scars, just a wounded spirit and sense of self-esteem.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">If your spouse, the person you are closest to habitually, verbally abuses you and dismisses your feelings, you will begin to see yourself and your needs as unimportant, of little consequence and irrelevant. When you finally recognize and come to terms with the idea that you are being verbally abused you need to also become focused on getting help. Here are some steps you can take if faced with verbal abuse:</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Not all of these have to apply to be abuse! Sometimes the passive aggressive comments or the feeling of walking on eggshells for fear of the verbal abuse is enough. Verbal or emotional abuse often escalates to physical abuse. In my case it took 10 years of emotional and verbal abuse before there was physical abuse. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">---- If I can leave anyone can. It took a long time to find the courage ----- you will find it too. It feels good to be happy again! </span></div>
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